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No, its not the start to a new year, it’s the countdown to turning the BIG 3-0!
For me, turning 30 was both a mixture of excitement and dread. I was nervous because it is the age that would officially end my twenties and I was no longer going to be looked at as young. I guess 30 seems to be the age to officially enter adulthood, I was feeling old. There were also the feelings of dread. I was turning 30 and I have never been married and no prospect of getting married, I don't have kids, and feel like my biological clock is spinning wildly! Everywhere I turned my friends were living out the life I expected I to have this age. There was pressure from my family and friends upon turning 30. Pressure to find someone nice and settle down. To focus in on my career goals and find a job that would take care of me and build my 401K. I had spent most of my twenties building my career and I was satisfied in my job but not excited about it anymore. There was pressure to think about having children. (My mom actually told she would buy me a sperm Popsicle if that’s what I wanted for my birthday.)
Some how 30 became about how many milestones I checked off my to-do listen than another year to celebrate my existence. It was no longer about living life, but living life according to pre-determined check boxes. Check boxes that that others told me I needed to have marked by this arbitrary date, but also checkboxes I had set out for myself. The actual day of my 30th birthday was not very exciting either. On my actual birthday I had to work an event for work that started at 6am. Later in the day some friends gathered for a tailgate and some drinks, but the actual day was anticlimactic. There were no balloons, favors, or cake, it was just another day. In fact, it was so regular that I had to check my calendar to see what I actually did that day because I couldn’t remember.
But I also had feelings of excitement about turning 30. I was starting a new chapter in my life. Instead of looking at this birthday as an end to my 20’s, I started looking at it as the beginning of my 30s. Turning 30 was a chance to change old habits and start new habits. To get rid of people, issues, and things that were not healthy or encouraging. Its almost refreshing that I don’t feel 30! I actually feel better, and look better, than I did in my twenties. In fact I have had people mistake me for someone in their mid-twenties and they never believe when they say I’m 30!
For some turning 30 is a scary idea, more responsibility and pressure to do “adult” things like get married, have children, and buy a house. For some turning 30 is exciting and a fresh start! But the most important thing is to remember that you can make it whatever you want, just get out there and live! I thought my time of being wild and free was over, but little did I know it was just beginning. I hope you will continue to read my blog about how I have embraced being 30 and have resolved to make it a memorable decade!